Never Been There

     Okay, so this is the first blog experience I've been through.  I've never read a blog, let alone written one.  I usually keep my thoughts to myself.  Who wants to know what I have to say about anything?  But lately I've begun to realize that people don't know me for that exact reason.  I've always had a difficult time socializing with, and relating to people.  Growing up, I remember trying to find a place where I fit in, but never seemed to find it.  Maybe that's when I decided that what I thought didn't matter.  At least not to anyone other than myself.
      I have always been quite opinionated about life and the way that it ought to be lived.  Some may call it judgmental even.  I can't say that they would be wrong.  I've felt that there have always been rules that I have been expected to live by, and that I have expected myself to live by.  I suppose I try to hold others to those same expectations, and end up being disappointed in the results.  It's nothing new to me.  I can't say that I've had some revelation about this area of my life, and that God has transposed my thought processes when it comes to judgement.  I can say, however, that He has made me more aware of this recently.  My problem now is that I'm not exactly sure what to do about it.  I am frequently reminded of Matthew 7:5, about concentrating on my plank vs. my brothers speck.  But does that mean I completely ignore his wrongdoings until I become perfect?  Who am I to attempt to teach or guide anyone when there are plenty of areas in my life that need serious attention? 
     I had a friend when I was in high school that loved chicken. He would eat chicken every day for months.  He would randomly shout out "chicken" for no reason at all.
     So here it is.  This might be my attempt to let people know what goes on in this head of mine.  I'm not sure who will read this, but maybe you can get to know me a little better.  I'm going to try to be real.  But I'm not really sure how this will turn out.  I've never been there.